So many of you have sent me some of the nicest, warmest, most sincere messages that I truly was touched by. And you are right. If I was encouraging someone in my shoes I would say the same thing...and I here I am having trouble seeing through all the fog. My heart is so heavy it almost hurts...with leaving our children. If only I had acted sooner I could have had Azahria's passport expedited...I did have her passport pictures done on Monday ...because she's free to take and I would have LOVED to take her. ahhhhhh. If only.
We decided last night, very last minute ( but isn't it all last minute?) that I will fly to Seattle. The pass was closed yesterday and the thought of Dean driving home with our kids, late night, with snow....ummm wasn't very soothing. My flight was $185 and they told us this morning if I bring in my full itinerary they will get my bags in free seeing I'm going international. Last time they wouldn't so we'll see. I fly out of Pasco at 3pm, land at 3:55pm and leave Seattle 6:30pm (I think) :)
Good news is our update:
After the emotion of a crazy day had passed....I am getting a missionary flight to Solwezi and I'm ok with it. I will meet Tanis, C and Z there. Supposedly its just under 2 hours. Don't stop praying.
Tracey (Dean's other sister) is coming on Tuesday for a week!!! We are excited about this b/c the kids LOVE her and Dean can finish up some work.
ahhh there is so much in my head and a bag half packed on my bed. Seriously. And its 9:20am. We are heading out to Walmart/Target now to get the rest of the things on Tanis' list.
My prayers this morning are sincere and almost hurt to pray then I realize I'm not leaving them with my Father. So again, I surrender. Its not a daily thing for me. It's moment by moment.
That God would hold our new baby....and please stop my body from signs that would panic anyone let alone on a 20 hour flight to Africa....
That I would be filled with peace. No anxiety for this flight.
That I would sleep in Africa. I didn't sleep in Africa and this can make me panic. :(
That as a friend said today 'things would happen so quickly in Africa, the social worker's head would spin!'.
Thank you all. Where would I be without you? I'm so grateful for your prayers for us at this time.