Thursday, March 19, 2009

I just noticed something.

When I started this blog I had no idea IF we would adopt, HOW MANY we would adopt and WHERE we would adopt from. I remember sitting on our bed late at night as everyone slept starting this private little blog. I was like 'wow what do I name it?'  Looking back at whats happened. ...in a few weeks things have come together to where it looks like we are adopting TWINS from AFRICA.  Interesting.  I had no idea what I named it and I just went to look at my settings and saw it is called "OurAngelsFromAfrica". ...

Touched.

In church a few Sundays ago I meant to write this as this was really moving.  The children sang a special song. Because of where we were sitting we couldn't hear it. I couldn't hear anything being said except the word "arise" in the chorus.  All of a sudden I started to cry. It was so strange, I had no idea why I was crying and I turned to Dean and said "wow, this is so strange, I'm crying and I don't know why but its something to do with this song". I had never heard the song before. That night Dean called me to the den to show me something on youtube. He had pulled up the song from earlier in the day. It was by Michael W. Smith and here are the words:

Can you hear, there's a new song
Breaking out from the children of freedom
Every race and every nation
Sing it out sing a new Hallelujah

Let us sing love to the nations
Bringing hope of the grace that has freed us
Make Him known and make Him famous
Sing it out sing to the new Hallelujah

Chorus
Arise
let the church Arise
Let love reach to the other side
Alive come alive
Let the song Arise

Africa sings a new song
reaching out with the new Hallelujah
Every son and every daughter
everyone sing a new Hallelujah

Chorus
Arise
let the song Arise
[ Michael W. Smith Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] 
Let love reach to the other side
Alive come alive
Let the song Arise

Bridge
Whoa whoa yeah (2x)
Let the song arise(2x)
Let the song arise yeah (2x)

Spoken
Let the world sing a new Hallelujah
From Africa to Australia
From Brazil to China
From New York down to Houston!

Chorus
Arise
let the church Arise
Let love reach to the other side
Alive come alive
Let the song Arise


I was so moved. I had never heard the song before. Definitely didn't understand any words at church and it shouldn't be a surprise how much this song was connected to what God is leading us to do in Africa. He spoke through a song and later I saw just how much it related to us.  Michael W. Smith even sings with the African Childrens Choir in the song. 


Home Study.







So the faith aspect of adopting children kinda freaked me out a little and ... I ... regrettably decided to go with some logic. We had not heard back from Tanis with news from a local Zambian Attorney whether this was looking feasible or not and I had the homestudy booked for Saturday March 14.  I called and cancelled the appointment. Like really...how reasonable is it to dish out $1000 for something that  almost seems fanciful at this point. There's little happening in the 'action' sense of things that is moving this forward so no kidding...if you are going to sprinkle a little bit of 'wisdom' on top of this faith experience...then definitely you need to cancel the Homestudy until things are moving along more...right? See thats what I thought.

That was Saturday.

Saturday night at 9:30pm we called Tanis. It was Sunday morning in Zambia and she was making pancakes for breakfast. Sometimes the 'wow what a small world' idea hits you. We just pick up the phone and call AFRICA?!    Dean was sitting at the computer talking to her as I was cleaning kitchen. It was on speaker so I could hear. She says "I'm glad you called...you'll never guess who came to visit me" and I'll be honest my first thought, though only split second, when she said "I'm glad you called" was "WOW she has an answer!!!" then when she said "you'll never guess who came to visit" I thought "oh. must be visitors from Canada or something" and I turned back to do the dishes. Then she says "yesterday I got a knock on my door and it was the TWINS!!! With their great aunt (their caregiver). She walked 8kms with them, holding them and a basket on her head to visit for a few hours. Coincidence that Tanis hasn't seen them in 6mths and they come 'out of the blue' to visit her the same day I go weak on the faith aspect of this journey and cancel my Homestudy...? I immediately regretted doubting God. Hasn't he shown me pretty clearly this is HIS idea? His work? He'll work it out? "oh ye of little faith..." ahhh thats me. 

So Tanis of course invited them in. She talked quite a bit with their great aunt and asked again if they were still trying to get someone to adopt the boys. She said yes, desperately. Tanis then mentioned that her brother and his wife (us) were looking into it and she wanted her to know that if that did happen b/c of the distance between us there is a chance they would never see the children again. She said that is perfectly ok, its what must be done to give them more than they can be given in their poor village--they are neglected and extremely malnourished. The closest relative is their grandmother's sister and she is older and simply cannot care for them properly.

Tanis then invited the children to stay for the weekend so that was pretty special. We even got to hear their sweet little voices on the phone! Tanis has taught them how to count in English so in their little African broken english they said "One, two , three, four!" So cute. Definitely was an emotional moment.

We are so blessed. This is God's plan, His work and we are just trying to be used of Him.